My Karma just ran over your dogma...

a friend asked me why i believe in Karma today...
and i thought about it and...
never got to answer because she answered her ringing phone and wandered off in a haze of cigarette smoke

but i'll answer to you now.

I believe in karma becuase i've been on the recieving end of it all too often.
I'm the kinda person that is so kind and nice that its scary, and i'm not exaggerting or bragging, i hate it about myself, if i could i would turn myself into a bitch without thinking twice.
being so nice is a chore, people always think they are pulling the wool over your eyes, or using you, or getting the best of you, when in reality
whether they wanted to or not, you'd still just be nice to them...just because.
I'm the girl that gives up her seat on the light rail, that doesn't pitch a fit when my order is all messed up. I chase people down when they have dropped $20. and i buy people i barely know gifts for their birthday, i make tea for people when they are sick, and i watch peoples dogs, babysit their kids, and work incredibly awful hours that no one wants to work...simply to make others lives easier.

But karma always catches me on the bad days...the day when i haven't had enough sleep and i let a door slam shut behind me in someones face...Karma turns on its high alert and starts hunting me down.

last year i killed a mosquito and a week later got bitten by a huge disgusting salivating spider....it was a beast and hurt like heck for about a month.

I believe in karma because it catches me every single time! alot of people get away scott free...so they dont believe in karma
i know better

truly what goes around does come around.

i say all this because these next few weeks are karma...i did some things i shouldn't have done in my time abroad...(what happens in Turkey, stays in Turkey) and now i'm reaping what i sowed because...

I've got more schoolwork then i can possibly complete, and friends pulling on me in every direction to spend time with them, i'm searching for an internship to give me job experience and i started a new job for living sustanability...

My life is chaotic...it was a mess..but now my mess got messier and seems to be spinning out of control and all i can do is let go and let God.

moral of this story...do whatever you want...but remember it will come back to you!

xox
J